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HOLY SHIT THE PHONE NUMBER THING AND THE BAMBI THING
I FEEL SO UNDERSTOOD RIGHT NOW
Yes, to almost all of these. Especially the ones about where to look at people’s faces, endless and tangential thought trains, and having to force yourself to smile in social situations because you were thinking about other things. Those are so so true for me.
I’m pretty sure I have ADHD. I’m pretty sure I’ve had it ever since that elementary school teacher sent a letter home to my mom saying he was going to give me an A, because I got really good grades on his tests, but also, I never turned in any homework assignments and I didn’t pay attention in class. My mom made him change my grade because she said I wasn’t learning any life skills by having him give me a good grade that I didn’t properly earn. (Also she was mad because she knew I was doing my homework at least some of the time and couldn’t figure out why I hadn’t turned it in. Fun fact, I either lost it before I did it, or lost it afterward.)
The most I remember from his class was watching a dandelion tuft float in through the window and wondering if dandelion tufts could be tiny alien space ships and if there could be a tiny alien on that ship who wanted to learn human math. And what would happen if you put a hotdog on a telephone pole wire. Would it explode? Or would it cook? Also why do birds not get cooked on the wires? I also seem to remember that this kid Drew could draw REALLY straight lines without a ruler, and I spent a lot of time trying to be like Drew but I was never able to draw a straight-straight line. I sure don’t remember any of that math though.
Also fun fact, I was the only kid who failed band. Got an actual F on an actual report card because of the fucking clarinet. That teacher threw a fake rock at me. It was squishy, but it didn’t look squishy. Also, the band director had a glass eye. He never took it out or talked about it, but we all knew about it and it didn’t move with his other eye and that always creeped me out a lot.
I would love to go chat with someone about possibly having ADHD, because I think it would help me study a lot better (yesterday, I was reading a chapter, found something I wanted to turn into flash cards. My flash cards were downstairs so I said “I will go down and get my flash cards, and I will come right back up here and make them. No stopping on the way.” I somehow never made it back upstairs. I got a snack, played with the dog…I don’t remember what else happened but suddenly it was late and I was looking at the table where my flash cards are and just thought “shit…”).
Anyway, I can’t go talk to someone because the Navy says you’re non-deployable and disqualified from being a flight surgeon if you’re A-distractible and B-on a psychoactive medication. So basically, all my career goals will be ruined if I actually go to a doctor about it. So I’m just going to keep suffering through. And hopefully, ya know, pass this step exam.
